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sleep is very important to me i always feel like i never get enough.. any tips on falling asleep would be greatly appreciated. but be advised this is not a tips and tricks site. true anorexics know there are no real tips and tricks, there's eating and not eating, being out of control and being in control, looking like a monster and looking like a sweet skinny girl or boy (am i the only person that thinks when i gain i look meaner? i think its bc im so tall i feel like im towering over ppl like some cliche bully. ugh. not attractive).
SKINNY! thanks soo much for the comment. i work primarily from my phone so some stuff i cant do, like comment back :( it makes it really hard to get the word out about my blog. if you really like my blog, please be sure to tell a friend or two thanks sooo much :)
kk skinny. last week. lets see. i started heavily restricting last friday. saturday was good and then sunday i was supposed to hang out with a friend. this friend and i have a weird relationship, im very intimidated by her. shes bulimic and shes a lot skinnier than me (not for loong ;] ) and at the last minute she ended up canceling on me. and i felt real bad for different reasons and i bought some pot. BAD IDEA. i got stoned//binged sunday, monday, tuesday, and wednesday i realized that pot was keeping me back, like it was hard enough to restrict but with the munchies?? ugh its agonizing. so basically you need to figure out whats keeping you back and take control. think about what your trigger could be and be honest! this was just last weds that i took control, not even a week ago and last night i posted pictures of myself. i would have NEVER did that on weds, i looked that bad!
also this is what i think about when tempted: 'yes, starving is hard. yes, im hungry. but life is fucking hard. its hard today bc im starving but tomorrow it might be hard cause of something else and it would be a lot worse if im fat.' which is the truth right? after binging has someone ever done something or said something and you just lose control and think, 'i would soo better handle this if i was skinny.' i know i do. think about that.
also think about the times that you lost a bit and you were really happy. and TRY REAL HARD to think up a time you were happy after binging. yeah. nothings coming up right? or run to your comp and look at thinspo. these are all just options, you have to find what works for you. so find it! dont be idle. i know 'you have to find what works for you' is very cliche but its true. no one can put a stop to this but YOU! im here to just cheer you on :)
but to answer your question, since weds I've been doing real good. especially if you disregard the bread thing.
i really want to start yoga again. there is a class this morning im debating whether or not i should go. i really want to but i hate my mom giving me shit about working out. hmm idk.
i HIGHLY recommend yoga. also go to a studio dont try to do it by yourself. I've never met anyone who taught yoga who was mean or judgemental. usually theyre super nice and really helpful and get you into position correctly so you can reap all of the benefits and not hurt yourself. it actually burns a few cals and is good for the body overall. which i really like cause im starving it, which makes me feel bad. i will have to do a post on that i think it would be helpful. hmm later. anyways i feel so empty and pure i wanna go to yoga like this. i have to keep busy it doesnt start for another three hrs.
i hope everyones doing good. leave a quick comment with thoughts or tell a friend!
later im gonna post thinspo!!
Think Thinn,
Strict Chick
p.s. this is currently my ultimate favorite thinspo
and this is my screensaver on my phone
a good thinspo blog is
skinny-thin.blogpsot.com
if you like it, tell her i referred you :)
k ttyl think thinn!!
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