hello once again :)

i finished all my chores and i still have about another hour til the class. good news: my mom is relunctantly letting me go to yoga (i did all my chores without her saying a thing, what could she do?) and she doesnt want me to take the bus so shes taking me there. thats good and bad. i was looking forward to my walk to the bus stop. i might have to take the bus back though so its ok.
this is my first time going to yoga in a while and its a new place so im kind of nervous. also, I've shut myself in the house the past 2weeks or so focusing on losing weight, so this is my first actual human interaction in a while, not counting my mother. so yeah im nervous. i just feel like everyone hates me. idk. my back has been hurting and my posture is going to hell so i hope they can help with that.

i was rereading my intro post and i didnt put my age i put 'im young.' well. I've been looking at other blogs and these girls are like 15! im 19. so im young but not super young. fyi.

this is what i wanted to talk about, i touched on it briefly in my last post. ok so yes i love ana. i love losing. i love smoking pot with friends. i love coffee. i love cigarettes. basically i love all the bad shit. but only when i start really starving do i realize the toll it takes on my body and i feel bad. like i feel sorry for my body. i dont want to eat but i just feel like its crying for food and i have to console it cause i know its not getting any. usually when i start starving i stop everything else. i had a tall coffee yesterday with tons of water//half&half, my first in days. i havent smoked pot in a bit and dont think i will for a good while. especially since school is starting soon. if you dont smoke pot (thats really great! seriously) its kind of hard to understand but everyone isnt like those above the influence commercials. im veyr mature and i understand everything has a time and a place and during school i usually dont smoke. i dont do anything, i study. i do very well in school. i think im just super smart but i only perform like im smart. well in high school i did cause i was completely unhappy but in college its going to be different. but yeah anyways when i tell people i blaze they really cant believe it. i also hate being around ignorant people and i usually do it alone so.. idk my point is that im not some lazy ass stoner. there.

anyways what i really wanted to talk about which hopefully can help some of you is when im feeling bad about starving bc its so bad for my body, i go the extra mile to pamper myself. also, keeping busy doing something nice for yourself can help you NOT think about food :)

these are some things i find time to do everyday (usually when i get a hunger pain). also keep in mind right now my schedule is super free and if you dont have time for everything just try to do some things it really will elevate your mood.

-make your bed
-really brush your teeth. like brush tongue, floss, mouthwash, everything.
-keep your room//house tidy
-take a long hot shower//bath.
-find a great smelling lotion you really like to use after
-sweep
-clean the kitchen. i love cleaning the stove. after scrubbing and scrubbing i completely forget about food and like an hour has gone by.

tip on cleaning stoves with tons of grease, cause if its really caked on you might give up if it isnt helping. take some baking soda and mix with water to form a paste. pour its right on the spots. leave for about 5-10mins. then take the rough side of a sponge and go to town!

this post was kind of random, not much food involved but i hope it helped. if it wasnt helpful let me know just comment as anonymous i really dont mind. this blog is as much for me as it is for you :)

thinspo later!

Think Thinn,
Strict Chick