ABCDiet

Ana Boot Camp
day1: 500 calories(or less)
day2: 500 calories(or less)
3:300 calories
4:400 calories
5: 100 calories
6: 200 calories
7: 300 calories
8: 400 calories
9: 500 calories
10: fast
11: 150 calories
12: 200 calories
13: 400 calories
14: 350 calories
15: 250 calories
16: 200 calories
17: fast
18: 200 calories
19: 100 calories
20: fast
21: 300 calories
22: 250 calories
23: 200 calories
24: 150 calories
25: 100 calories
26: 50 calories
27: 100 calories
28: 200 calories
29: 200 calories
30: 300 calories
31: 800 calories
32: fast
33: 250 calories
34: 350 calories
35: 450 calories
36: fast
37: 500 calories
38: 450 calories
39: 400 calories
40: 350 calories
41: 300 calories
42: 250 calories
43: 200 calories
44: 200 calories
45: 250 calories
46: 200 calories
47: 300 calories
48: 200 calories
49: 150 calories
50: fast

Im starting the ABC Diet

my plan is to go til the end of january which makes it out to 47days if I start today.

I just weighed myself: 137!

im so happy. I lost 5lbs on my three day fast. but don't let me get too happy. oh tell me im fat please. fat fat fat fat fat fat fat.

small victory. I have to keep going. my next goal is 130. I plan on juice fasting this entire week. so ill get some calories. ill use the ABC as a guide. but all in juice.


130 by friday??

ugh I just really don't wanna gain this back. at all. food is GROSS. it takes away all the happiness I feel now.

Im starting the ABC D

I just fake ate dinner

it wasn't as easy as I thought it would be. I chewed on a lot of fried chicken but I never swallowed. I did swallow about six tablespoons of split pea soup. it was liquidy. it reminded me of my veggie juices. I also had to chew on a lot of 'salad' honestly idk what you call lettuce drenching in bleu cheese dressing. I swallowed like 2 leaves.

im gonna say I ate about 300cals today total.

120-apple juice
0-green iced tea
180-fake eating dinner.

im kinda pissed that I had to do this but im not devastated. I guess cause I know if tomorrow I don't see what I wanna see on the scale im just gonna start fasting again until I do. also during the week its soo much easier to get away with not eating.

im disappointed but im not devastated. I didn't lose control. my stomach still feels empty but my mouth feels violated. lol. wasn't supposed to sound so sexual. but it does. my mouth feels like a vacuum bag. all these specks and bits of food. unwanted food. hope all of you are doing better.


think thinn



like kate moss in the 90s getting loved on by johnny depp thin. not fake eating dinner thin.

off subject: I changed my 'about me'

check it out if you like. I've got all these thoughts going on and im sure its because of this article my english professor made me read.

its called 'the numbing of the american mind' and its by thomas de zengotita.

its soo good. I think. I mean the way he describes the different levels of real. I mean idk if any of you have noticed but I have. and I feel like in the world of weightloss, eating disorders are what's real. its seriously like people taking control even when it hurts. and hurting when we've lost control because its like real. its apart of us. idk. I would rather binge right now after 2 1/2 days of fasting and hurt. like truly hurt. than get a trainer and go on a diet and be healthy and wait 10 years to lose anything substantial. because that's fabricated. its a story to tell people. its something to help you define yourself, which is fine, everyone has their story that defines them, but I just don't think it should be linked to losing weight cause its not. im losing weight. im sitting at home, I don't make eye contact with the kitchen, I stay busy to burn calories, I post here so I don't think about food, I and you and everyone else like us is weight loss. we're real weight loss. we're the struggle and the sacrifice. those people are another breed.

you can fnd the article here

http://www.harpers.org/archive/2002/04/0079134

10hrs away from 3 full days of fasting.

yeah that's right. I didn't eat at all yesterday. so it may not be a big deal to some of you fasting pros but I've never made it more than a day and im on my way to nailing three!

yesterday I only had a venti coffee in the morning and water for the rest of the day. today I've had a bit more calorie wise.

about to get quasi gross but yesterday I started my period and not til night did the cramps come. and I get horrible cramps like that make me throw up (which im sure I would've done if I were eating). but im scared to take an asprin after not eating so I read online about how walking helps. so this morn I walked for 1hour and 40mins. I was so proud of myself. but halfway through I was feeling it like I thought I was going to faint.

so I got an apple juice box which was 120cals. then my mom paid for me to go get my nails done which was a god send. cause you know how after a workout you just wanna eat everything in sight, yeah? well that was curbed by all the models in the glossy mags I flipped through in the shop. not taking care of my nails paid off :)

I got a venti iced green tea at starbucks cause coffee was getting boring. and actually I think that was zero cals cause tea doesn't have cals and I just added splenda. so I don't feel so bad cause just right now my mom came home and asked me if I wanted some of her gingerale and I was like 'yeah!' cause I didn't wanna get suspicious.

then I was like 'are you still making the chicken' because she's been talking about it ALL DAY and she goes yeah soon. but im getting out of that.

im cleaning my room now and I have all these clothes to put on a hanger so im gonna get out of making a plate as soon as she's done, which is what she likes- to watch me and make sure I get enough by saying 'oh im still putting clothes on a hanger.' and usually we eat and watch tv together but I just got its always sunny in philadelphia (hilarious btw) on dvd so im gonna be like 'oh I wanna watch that on my tv' which she won't say anything to because she doesn't like the show.

then im gonna close my door and throw out like half the soup and like one chicken thing and just leave it. because like clockwork my mom will like bust in my room unannounced to just see what im doing or to tell me something trivial i.e. see if im eating.

so that's the plan. fasting is so much fun. I feel so relaxed. like I just sit in my chair and I close my eyes and I don't fall asleep but im so weak that its more than just closing my eyes, you know? its like nice.

off subject but this guy in my class that I go to tomorrow has had a crush on me since the first day and I've just decided now that I like him back. and I think tomorrow is our last class or second to last. so im hoping he talks to me and wants to keep in touch. wish me luck. I have to look nice, open, and approachable. and I know if I eat anything I will get into such a funk ill look depressed and might scare him away. so this is real important to keep this fast up, for my spirits!!

I hope all of you are doing good. I really do. being successful is like the best high. I still haven't weighed myself. I plan to tomorrow morning as soon as I wake up. im not gonna eat in the morning but I might in the afternoon it depends.

I sort of want to do a five day fast that would be only til tuesday. idk. im definitely buying some juice (last post, checkit) so that if I truly break ill at least have that.

I feel so good. I will not let my six followers down lol.

sometimes from my phone im unable to comment on the blogs that im reading so if you know some support let them know about my blog. I could use it. knowing at least one person reads this is such a stable rock to fall back on when it comes to eating.

wish me luck with everything

think thinn

hey queenie oh queenie ((IMBACK))

I have six followers. hmm. well people you should know some things.

I stopped posting in july cause my mom turned off my phone. and this is the way I post because my internet access is limited.

im sorry about that.

also im a different person, and some of you may not agree with my new ideas.

I started college and im finishing up my first semester. im a different person completely. I read that last post and to me its like a different person.


anyhoo. I fasted all day yesterday. I had just a grande coffee and a venti coffee from starbucks. id say under 200. but more than likely, 100.

I don't think of this as 'ana' as a struggle, as a negative. for now. this may change but I was reading some blogs and they're like 'this is my demon.' 'oh, this is hell.' 'I just want to die.'

quite the opposite with me. this time around and honestly I know my success is inevitable. I hate food. I do. I eat to feel normal around people, its like to be socially sound. and then my insides the physical part of me is just horrid. my body hates food.


before I came back to heavy restricting I started drinking juices and I HIGHLY recommend it. especially like carrot juice. the taste is not too great, its got like a bite to it lol, but its so low in calories, yet high in nutrition. AND since your body isn't digesting 40 baby carrots, you feel the energy immediately and most important hunger just goes away.

hunger=your body wanting nutrition.

its so much better to give your body a little concentrated nutrition (i.e. vegetable juice) than a lot of what fatties cal food.

you seriously have to eat so much of that, to get the same result from a few sips of carrot juice.

carrot juice takes a while to get used to. if you absolutely can't stand it, find something else. MUST BE A VEGETABLE. fruit juice is so high in cals it'll be defeating the purpose.

hope that helps. I miss you all. comment if you're still reading.


I read this on someone else's blog and it made me very happy. its the sum of my efforts:

"fast and be pretty."


so simple, so true. im tired of agonizing over 'ana' I want to fast, be the envy of others, get the boy, and be signed to a modeling agency. stat :)


my weight yesterday was 142. I don't want to weigh myself again til monday morning.


I find weighings jinx me. if im still fat, I think im getting no where and there's no point so I eat. and if im thinner, I reason its only a little and I eat and gain it back.

monday I've got class so that should help me get a start on not damning myself because of the scale as I hurry off to school.

I appreciate you all. sorry its been a bit. hope you're still reading.

think thin!!